My journey down the asile

So this past weekend was kinda boring, didnt really do much but it was kinda nice to sleep in and lounch around in sweats all day. John and I have been looking @ some houses to maybe buy, nothing for sure yet just keeping an open mind because I'm ready for us to be on our own:) Definetly need some space and breathing room.
So I'm super excited because I just brought Johns B-day gift offline and I cant wait to give it to him. He seriously always spoils me and I love being able to spoil him back when I have $. So I have a huge mid-term tomorrow for medical Termionlogy that i have been studying for all night so I'm praying I do good:) Only 217 days till the big day, I can't believe I am marrying the man of my dreams. It's so weird you spend half your life finding that perfect person to spend the rest of your life with and when it happens, its simply a miracle. There's not a day that goes by I dont thank God for bringing John into my life. I've been searching to find my purpose in life and to be quite honest @ times I'm competly frightened of where my life is going. All I can count on is the good Lord will help me to find my purpose and thankfully John is willing to be supportive of my descisons even when I fail. I get scared thinking about the future and where my life will lead me but I hope with my good intentions I will be successful not only as a wife but as a mother and a friend. I am truly blessed with my best friend Nicole. God brings people into your life @ different times and I truly believe God has brought Nicole to me because without her I would be soo lost. Hopefully in time everything will work out and my family will realize I am a good person and i do mean well and I hope John knows forever and always I will always love him!