My journey down the asile

I feel like life for me right now is unsuring and the unknown of it really frightens me. My life is truly complete with John in it but the unknown of knowing someone day not only will I be a daughter who has done alot wrong, a sister who said cruel things, a wife who has betrayed the love he has for me, i will be a mother whose child will watch every move i make and my teachings will be the outcome of this miracle for thier own future lives. I want to have faith in the life i live but as i struggle through school right now I am afaid of failing to the people who love and believe in me. I've always struggled through life trying to please everyone and be the peacemaker, and what I've found is I'm this happy go lucky person in front of people but the real truth is when I'm all alone I break down and the feelings I try to act out are really shown because I feel as though I've always wanted to be that person who succeeds and who is going somewhere with their life but when i look @ where i am going I feel as my world is just spinning in circles. I'm seeking the love of God to help me find my true purpose in life and to help be the best person i can be. You know you always hear the saying, "Treat others as you would want to be treated" honestly think about that for a moment, if everyone could take time out of their busy lives to treat people with respect our world would be amazing. Trust in the love of our Lord. I am thankful i found the love of God again in my life.

I am inspired by the truly amazing people in my life that help keep me going even when i think its impossible, for that I am truly thankful. I am going to keep faith even when every inch of me wants to give up....failure reaches those who do not keep faith.....